I am going to give this blog thing a try, I think my life is pretty interesting so I'll give it a shot. I just moved to Miami, FL to finish my Masters degree and am loving life. The weather however is not so great, we are currently in a tropical storm warning. I don't understand how people here are all so calm about it! I am freaking out!! Hopefully it will quickly pass and we can get back to the beautiful beach weather that I moved here for.
I have been through some rough changes in the past few months. After I moved back to Miami I realized how much I really like living at home with all of my friends and family. Also, my boyfriend of over four years and I broke up. We planned our lives together, we had plans, and now they are over. With a little fighting on my end of not wanting to end it I quickly came to the realization that we were not good together, we were actually quite toxic. Our relationship turned into a constant fight and neither of us were happy. Unfortunately, I had poured my heart and soul into our relationship and was heart broken when it ended. I don't know if I believe in love anymore. At least not that kind of love. How can I love someone who has the ability to make me feel as horrible as I do. I used to believe in the fairy tale ending, and now I think that will never happen to me. Maybe I used up all of my loves that I am allowed in life :-/ I don't know.
I am not in a good place in my life right now. I know I have friends both in Miami and at home who love me and only want the best for me, and my family will always be there for me, but I am alone and do not know what to do with my life. I need a break from my own life.
"que sera sera..." one of my favorite quotes that I am trying really hard to remember and live by.
I know it seems hard and confusing right now hun but what would life be without the rainy days right? The rain makes the flowers grow so this rainy time will only make you blossom!! You have so much love to give and there is someone out there deserving of it, who won't throw it away. you just gotta get through the weeds first. Don't give up on it! I love you lots!! Enjoy your new blog!! they can be pretty exciting! :) love love love!!
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