Wednesday, December 21, 2011

friends.

Friends.
Good friends.
Best friends.
Frenemies.
Acquaintances.
Old friends.
New friends.
Ex-friends.
Boyfriends.
Girlfriends.

Everyone has friends.  Everyone has many different kinds of friends. Sometimes good friends turn into best friends or even boyfriends or girlfriends, and sometimes best friends turn into frenemies, or even ex-friends.

What makes two people go from being good or even best friends to ex-friends or acquaintances? It's terribly sad.  There must be a breaking point though...it can be that simply distance makes a friendship fail, but I don't believe that because one of my very best friends and I went away to college and saw each other maybe twice during those four years and we are just as close, if not closer now.  I believe something has to happen.  Not necessarily a fight, maybe just a different opinion on a certain subject, or maybe lives just go in different directions and one gets left behind.  However it happens, it's sad.  That's all there is to it, it's sad.  The even sadder part, that I've come to notice, sometimes after one friend gets OUT of a relationship where the couple had a mutual friend, those friendships deteriorate. Maybe not immediately, or even with both people in the relationship, but eventually there is a loss of friendship.  Even sadder, the initial friends are sometimes the ones whose friendship doesn't last, and this new person who was brought into their lives through a relationship remains friends and simply takes them away. Maybe that's life ?

I love my friends, I would do almost anything for them at almost any given time. However, when I have "friends" who blatantly disregard my feelings and make me feel like the one in the wrong or make me feel like I'm over reacting or being dramatic, sorry sweetie, our friendship is speeding down hill at an increasing rate and you have no idea it's even happening until it's going to be too late.

Monday, November 28, 2011

NOT my favorite things...

cold weather
stomach aches
my shows NOT being new
mornings
snow
my sister's going back to school/work
texting first
Doctor appointments

Wednesday, November 23, 2011

favs.

pink nail polish
thanksgiving eve
moon brook
cabernet
sisters being home :)
peace signs
sparkly shoes

Life.

Because it’s not just about moving forward. It’s about ending up in the right place.

Friday, November 18, 2011

these are a few of my favorite things...

blue sky
straight, soft hair
watching movies in a warm blanket
kissing hello
kuhlua and vanilla ice cream
Practical Magic

Thursday, November 17, 2011

favs

Bonaventure basketball games
my new red hair
pink starburst
glee night
my purple pumps
new eye makeup
11:11 on 11.11.11
throwback mountain dew
Coach bags
Kate Spade pink eye glasses
twitter

Friday, July 1, 2011

Marilyn Monroe

I have a mild obsession with Marilyn Monroe.  For Christmas not one, but two of my three sisters got me a Marilyn book.  Also, my cousin, who was my secret santa, bought me a coffee mug with a Marilyn quote...clearly my obsession is public.  I have started a small collection of Marilyn items in my apartment, and plan to continue. 

Lately I have been wondering why this obsession started.  At first, I think it was for the same reason everyone who loves her, loves her...she was a beautiful successful actress, I don't agree with everything she did, like have an affair with multiple men, buuuut for the most part I thought her life was magnificent.

Now, I think the obsession continued growing because I sort of relate to her.  She only ever played the dumb blonde role because that's all her managers and directors would allow her to do, she was good at it, why change something that was working, right? Although, she wasn't dumb, she was actually quite intelligent.  Well, a lot of people only think of me as a dumb blonde. I'm not dumb, nor am I naturally blonde. Anyway, I do tend to put on a show and hide the real me from time to time.  A little while ago I was talking with one of my best friends and she said to me that many people have asked her why she is friends with me since I am so flighty.  This really upset me, I wanted to scream, "KEEP IT TO YOURSELF!!" but I clearly didn't. Marilyn played a dumb blonde and people thought that was all she was...I put up walls and not allow people to see the real me, which sometimes comes off as a dumb blonde.  Fortunately, I know it's an act, I'm not really dumb, and honestly, I don't really care if someone thinks otherwise...get to know me, then you will see I'm not so flighty. "I've never fooled anyone. I've let people fool themselves. They didn't bother to find out who and what I was. Instead they would invent a character for me. I wouldn't argue with them. They were obviously loving somebody I wasn't." Marilyn Monroe. I love finding a Marilyn quote that fits my life <3

Wednesday, January 19, 2011

"It's all make believe, isn't it?" Marilyn Monroe

I have been pondering the idea of how much of what we believe is true and how much is acutally just make believe.  I'm not talking about faith here, because I know everyone has a different idea and belief about God, and that is their own choice and belief, I choose to believe in God, and that is one thing I am sure is true.

Now now, I am not going to just sit here and write about faith, because that is not what I have been thinking about.

Instead, I have been thinking more along the lines of fairy tales.  Growing up little girls were taught that one day they will grow up, fall in love, and live happily ever after. Well what if that never happens? What if you met the guy you were supposed to fall in love with, but he was a frog at the time, and you went for the prince instead, who ironically, was a toad?! Now what? Is there a different guy you are going to fall in love with and live happily ever after with? or are you S.O.L.???

Then there is the whole idea that a girl gets two great loves in her life (a la, Sex in the City/Hollywood).  Well, what if use up your two great loves and let them both go, or they let you go. Are you done? Do you have to say goodbye to your dreams of finding your soul mate and living happily ever after?

I want the fairy tale ending, I am the first one in line to tell the world that there is such a thing, and you just have to wait.  I really do believe this, it was hard for me to remember this a short time ago, ahem, October 2010, not such a fun month, but I have to remember not to base my whole life on it, and you have to kiss a lot of frogs before you find your real prince.

As for the two great loves, how do you truly know that a "love" was a "great love"? Obviously it couldn't have been so great if it ended without the fairy tale ending, so I am here to tell Hollywood, that, no, there is not two great loves of every girls life, there is one, the one that you fall in love with and live happily ever after with. That is not make believe-it's real life, the make believe part is being a cartoon, or falling in love after two minutes of meeting.

Yes, I realize I am have an optimistic point of view on love and life, so don't rain on my parade. If you don't agree, that's okay, just like faith, you can believe whatever you want.

favs :)

It has been awhile since I have written, mostly because I had nothing to write about.  haha.  I have had no major epiphanies or break throughs about life, and all I do is go to work or school.  So, I have decided to just list some of my favorite things (yes, stolen from Sarah Trostle)

-snuggling in a warm blanket
-kissing
-holding hands
-Marilyn Monroe
-flamingos
-sunshine
-42 Hickory
-the leaves changing colors in the fall
-walking in the rain
-sweat pants
-getting flowers
-guys who can sing (to me)
-sleeping in the middle of the day
-Glee
-dark nail polish
-getting mancures
-shopping
-chap stick