rain rain go away

Tropical storm Nicole has made her presence in South Florida.  It rained literally all day on Wednesday and part of the day on Thursday.  I think she has passed by though, thank goodness!!!  Although I was forced to walk around South Beach on Wednesday in the rain due to an interview I had a Loews Hotel.  I'll update when I hear something!

If anyone ever tells you that you are not good enough, then he or she is actually the one who is not good enough for YOU.  No one should have the ability to make another person feel as though they are not a worthy enough person for whatever reason, and people who do are clearly not happy with their own lives and need to push down on others.  Whew..I needed to get that out!

I'm making a trip back home to good ol' upstate New York in two weeks!! I'm ready for some craziness!  Also, I am looking forward to the fall weather.  I love not having cold weather here in Miami, but I do on occasion like the smell of autumn.  Also, I like the fashion that comes along with cooler weather :)

For halloween I'm thinking of two things...Marilyn Monroe (because she is my idol) of a FLAMINGO (because I LOOOOVE them) let me know your thoughts!

"que sera sera..."

Life as I knew it...

I am going to give this blog thing a try, I think my life is pretty interesting so I'll give it a shot.  I just moved to Miami, FL to finish my Masters degree and am loving life.  The weather however is not so great, we are currently in a tropical storm warning.  I don't understand how people here are all so calm about it! I am freaking out!! Hopefully it will quickly pass and we can get back to the beautiful beach weather that I moved here for. 

I have been through some rough changes in the past few months.  After I moved back to Miami I realized how much I really like living at home with all of my friends and family.  Also, my boyfriend of over four years and I broke up.  We planned our lives together, we had plans, and now they are over.  With a little fighting on my end of not wanting to end it I quickly came to the realization that we were not good together, we were actually quite toxic.  Our relationship turned into a constant fight and neither of us were happy.  Unfortunately, I had poured my heart and soul into our relationship and was heart broken when it ended.  I don't know if I believe in love anymore.  At least not that kind of love.  How can I love someone who has the ability to make me feel as horrible as I do.  I used to believe in the fairy tale ending, and now I think that will never happen to me.  Maybe I used up all of my loves that I am allowed in life :-/  I don't know.

I am not in a good place in my life right now.  I know I have friends both in Miami and at home who love me and only want the best for me, and my family will always be there for me, but I am alone and do not know what to do with my life.  I need a break from my own life.

"que sera sera..." one of my favorite quotes that I am trying really hard to remember and live by.